Freedom! Breaking Chains!

Chains are breaking and Freedom is taking over! I feel so FREE! I LOVE how this piece turned out! After reading for class about all the suffering others have done for our Freedom, our rights, women rights, Voting rights, and so much more, I kept thinking about how when we let go and let God, things start to fall into place and good things start to happen. At church a song was sang about how chains are breaking and chains are falling, that song relates to all the abuse and pain and suffering I have been through. As I was talking to a friend about how every time we share our story a little more healing takes place and how a little more of that weight we carry is released. As I was talking to him, this image just came to me! I couldn't wait to get started, once the background was done, I stayed up painting late into the night, something I have not done in many years, working as it just flowed out of me! It was so exciting, relieving and rejuvenating to complete this piece! It is exactly how I feel right now, so FREE! A huge weight being lifted after a relationship of 4 years ended, the negative being left behind and the positive finally filling my soul. I finally gave it over to God and let him be in control, as change is hard, it is also very exciting. I started back to church and praying more than I had, I had time to myself and did a lot of soul searching... At the end of August, I will be closing on my first home for me and my son, I just recently began a new relationship, with an old friend, one whom I never thought I could have feelings like this for, as we grew up together, one of my older brothers best friends, and someone that always watched out for me. We have kept in touch over the past 20 or so years, and when reconnecting and talking a connection I never thought possible would happen. I have never been happier, never had anyone that cares for me, shows and tells me how much he loves me as well as my son. Someone that pushes me to be a better person, that supports me in my education as well as my art. That gives me time to work on my art, with no worries, who has allowed me into his world with no strings attached. I have never met anyone like him, with the exception of my dad. I am excited about this next chapter of my life, with my son, my new love, and his 2 boys. This piece represents all of that plus so much more, and I have to give all the glory to the man upstairs, my Heavenly Father. 

Below are pics of progress, of me working on the piece as well as the finished piece at the bottom. Enjoy! 

Freedom!!!

 

As I was reading chapters assigned in my class this summer session, ideas were running through my head in how I can create a piece of art that had to relate to the readings as well as somehow tie into my series of artwork. As I was working on my last piece and relaying how we had to share with our classmates in the AP studio class how we came about this piece an idea popped into my head about Freedom! I thought about black surrounding me as light shinned down from above of God's love on me with my arms raised towards the light. A shackle from around my neck would be broken and falling off with chain attached to a ball with all the weight that I have carried for so long finally being taken away! This is the first time in so long that I have not carried this weight, I no longer have a heaviest in my chest, or anxiety weighing me down. So many good things and life changing events have taken place for the good its been my FREEDOM! This is the start of my piece! I will add pictures of this as it develops!  

Trophy

This past week, I was able to take an AP Art Workshop for teachers. This was a new experience for me. I had taken a Pre-AP class many years ago and knew we would be creating artwork. After receiving an email about bringing materials and trying to narrow down what I would bring in, I went to class. After a VERY LONG day of lecture about AP and the program our teacher finally told us what project we would be doing. She had all these little trophies at the front of the room and handed each of us one and said we had free reign to do whatever we wanted with the trophy. I took this trophy home and debated and debated what I would do with this trophy and how I could tie this into my series, and have more healing take place......

 

Thoughts, discussion with my boyfriend, and finally started laying out ideas. I started working on the background first. I took a cardboard box and cut out the largest areas. I had originally planned on drawing on just a brown paper sack. I had already crumpled up, re-crumpled, stretched out, rubbed on the table and anything else to soften this bag. I tore off sections along with newspaper I crumpled and black paper I had crumpled as well and started gluing down in a collage like manner. I then tore away sections of the cardboard to reveal the corrugated section. Then I started drawing in the trophy, I did not want I directly in the middle as the dark side that I planned on would be less the positive side. Then I added the hearts, one dark heart that had been broken, my heart that had been broken, and then whole hearts to represent the future and the love that I have, and will offer to someone someday. Then I was kinda stuck, I knew I wanted to add chains so I added a little bit, I knew I wanted to add survivor on there somewhere.... just to figure out where and how it would all tie together. I remembered on my phone I once wrote a list of all the issues that I deal with and how I most likely needed to create art about those... so I went to that list, its amazing what you see and feel when looking at something you wrote down so long ago and seeing how much you have truly changed! I played with a few words and wrote them down, googled some images to try to see if I could find something that inspired me. The dark side seemed to come together more easily and more quickly for me... then it sat... and I was stuck again.. I went back to my list and started looking for forgiveness. How can I portray forgiveness when I have not truly forgiven those that have hurt me??? Because I can ask God to forgive them for me until he has done the work in me for me to be able to forgive them myself. Forgiveness will always be something I will always be working on. I was running out of time and another classmate came by my station and wanted to know more about my piece. I started to share with him (Dale) my story, he shared with me scripture and then took me to his piece to see how his life has been changed through Christ. It was absolutely amazing to hear his struggles and how he was brought through and has changed so much. Such a special connection I made with another person in a short amount of time, I LOVE how God works and brings people together! Dale helped me finish my piece the brighter side, with many suggestions and ideas. I loved finished this piece, but I felt that it just wasn't quite finished, I wanted to add chain to this piece. So I have plans to continue working on this piece and will post pics of the finished product when I am done. At the very bottom is the start of the canvas I will be attaching these pieces to.



 

Body Cast Project!

As I headed back to Junction for another summer session, this year I took Glassblowing! It was so great to see friends from last summer! As people wandered out to the glass pad to enjoy an evening watching the glassblowers, my friend, Lynn arrived. I wasn't sure she was going to be there this summer. I was so happy to see her. We started chatting about the past year and what we had been up to, the artwork we had created and where our lives had taken us! I was excited to share with her all the artwork that I had been busily working on throughout the year. After talking about the last piece about my body, I told her that I wanted to create another piece about my body but that was in a more positive light. That's when the ideas started flowing, we were searching the web, and talking excitedly. She suggested a body cast, to make a 3-D cast of my body and that would serve as the mold that I would be able to make as many casts from as I would like. As the evening wound down and friends went to their perspective cabins for the evening, I couldn't help but be so excited about where this could take me! The next morning, at breakfast, I started sharing with 2 of my friends Becky and Corina. We started talking about how we could make this cast. Thank God for Corina! She had a great solution and was just as excited to do this. Becky and I made a trip into town to get plaster, burlap (which I found a HUGE sack at the feed store for $5, in case your interested) and a few other supplies we would need. Returning to campus, we set up, and began cutting the burlap into strips, the plaster was ready, I was covered in Vaseline (to make it easier for the cast to come off my body) and we were ready. Corina started dipping the strips into the plaster and we were off! It was incredibly cold! below is the process of how the cast went! Thank you Becky for documenting this process for me and Corina for getting your hands dirty and creating this wonderful piece for me! After the plaster set up and we were able to remove it from my body, I let it set up for at least 24 hours. Then I had no idea where I wanted to go with this piece. So it sat, and sat and sat.....

 

When I got home, a week later I started my second class for the summer, an online class. There was a project that comes with class and I really wanted to somehow tie in my mold. So I made a papier mache cast from the mold. My original intentions were to take old photos of both sets of my grandparents and then my parents and my son, and somewhat make a family tree. I still want to do this but have changed my mind about the piece I want to do for class.

 

I have many ideas that this cast will be used for, with many more molds to be taken and transformed into many more pieces to go with my series. I am looking forward to where this chapter will take me and the healing that I know will take place along the way.