Weight Being Lifted

I think most women struggle with their weight, especially after having a child. I know I do constantly. With today's society focusing so much on beauty and skinny models, no room for imperfections and women with curves, it makes being a bigger woman harder. My whole life I have been told I need to be careful or I will gain too much weight. I have had too many people constantly throwing my weight in my face, telling me "I'm getting too big" or "I'm fat" as my body grew while carrying my son I had stretch marks form on my hips and breasts. My son's father would make horrible remarks about my body. All these comments have built up over the years, tearing me down, breaking my confidence, and making me feel so self conscious about my body. Over the past few years I have really struggled and put on some extra weight, now really struggling to lose it. I have lost it before but this time it has been much harder. As I look at myself in the mirror I no longer see the stretch marks as a negative thing, but as the beauty of carrying my wonderful little man. I also see I have curves and I am a thicker woman. As Nick tells me "I have someone who likes it" He has always made me feel comfortable in my body and love who I am no matter what size I am. He has never made me feel ashamed or embarrassed about my body, but has made me feel sexy and loved. I have learned the difference between someone who loves me verses the abuse I suffered through. I am so grateful to have someone that doesn't see all the flaws I see but loves me for me, no matter what I look like. Someone who pushes me when I want to lose this weight and is willing to work out with me, motivate me, and help me through the process. This pieces is letting go of the negative perception of my body, loving the body I am in and working towards the body that I am truly in love with, comfortable with and a body that I feel like a sexy woman in.